I used to run events all the time. (I prefer to call them events as opposed to races)
Why did I stop?
I can't exactly tell you why.... but if I'm being 100% honest, I think I just got caught up in the competitive side of things. I was constantly feeling bad about my performance, and as much as I don't want to say it, I kinda sorta put a little blame the blogging community for that.
Let me attempt to explain.
There are so many fabulous, strong, talented atheletes in the blogging community. They are fast. Much faster than me. Much faster that I will EVER be. I will read their race reports filled with envy, only to feel discouraged at my own times in comparison to theirs.
That being said, both blogs and running are personal. It was completely unintentional by each blogger... although I will say it stings a little when I read the words "slow" and anything that starts with "2:0_" in the same sentence.
My last half marathon was absolutely horrible. You can read about that here. I was so ashamed of myself after that race. I remember being incredibly embarassed about my time, and even more so because I ran using my dear friend Cathy's bib. I didn't talk about my time after that race... well you know what? I ran it in 2h40 and I'm friggin' proud of myself for each and everyone of those 21 kilometres.
Now that I'm older and wiser, I've come to embrace that I will likely never ever in my life run a sub 2 hour half marathon. And you know what? I'm absolutely ok with that.
I can run. I am strong. And I can finish anything I put my mind to.
All that to say, if you're looking for me on September 18th, you can find me here running the half marathon.
Best part? (read: I HATE HUMIDITY) I get to train all summer in the heat and humidity. If I survive the training, that alone will be a miracle.
It's on. And I'm friggin' pumped!