Every once in a while I get a case of the crazies.
You know, the ones when you talk yourself out of all the good you’ve done?
Today’s case of the crazies was brought to you by my bat wings.
Today my boss asked me to attend a meeting on his behalf with all the “big kids”. First thought was “Frig, I didn’t bring a sweater”. Odd, first thought I realize. While I was thrilled he asked me to attend, I just couldn’t help but think I’d be judged on my flabby mcflaberton arms.
Totally untrue, I realize.
Oddly enough, I kind of like my arms. Under all the loose skin and fat there is a lot of muscle definition.
I came home and wallowed in it for a while. I ate a bagel. I had a bowl of cereal. And then I had a granola bar. Food makes it feel better right? WRONG.
But then I talked myself out of it. I’m being ridiculous.
I lost 100lbs. I gained 30 lbs. Then I lost another 10lbs.
I’m healthy. I am fit.
This is my happy weight. It’s easy’ish for me to maintain and I’ve managed to do so for almost 8 freaking years.
Get a grip Amy. Fuck.
…and then I decided I needed to keep my mind busy and out of the kitchen. That mini binge took care of my remaining calories for the day.
So I cleaned.
I dusted, changed the sheets, and tidied the bedroom.
Took care of the laundry mountain that had become my closet. I also rearranged my shirts; moving the summer ones to a more visible spot. (Can I just brag for a minute about how amazing my closet is? It’s big enough I don’t really have to move clothes seasonally, LOVE IT)
Then I tackled my bathroom. Frig, I am gross. I shed more than Jersey does I swear. I did the counters, the shower, the tub, the mirror and the toilet. I even added some lilacs that I stole borrowed from the parking lot at work.
So now, here I sit. Slightly disappointed in my crazy behaviour…. but also a little bit proud for not letting it get out of control.
I look like a skid I realize. But at least I’m a content skid.
It’s okay to be a little crazy sometimes, it’s what makes me, ME!
7 comments:
I just ran the Toronto Half Marathon and they captured a great picture of me with my loose skin on my arm. It is so gross! I need cosmetic surgery!
You are a smart, successful & beautiful. Always remember that. :)
But I totally get it.
No one is perfect....we all have complexes.....and I think you are awesome just the way you are girly :)
MFO
And you my friend, are AWESOME! Crazy and all :) (people who aren't a tad crazy are boring, imo)
Agreed with all above. We all have our "parts and bits" that make us crazy. It's awesome you acknowledged it and then moved on! You rock!
My nephew nicknamed my batwings -- Upside-down popeye muscles!
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