Thursday, May 8, 2014

#throwbackthursday

While I was in NYC, I got to hang out with and old friend Amy. (Hi Amy!)  We hadn't seen in each other in 6 years so it was awesome to catch up... and I couldn't think of a better way to catch up than watching the Yankees play!

Amy and I used to work together back in the day in a job where... well... we partied a lot. I look back on those days and smile, as I basically just had fun everyday from May-September!

I don't have a lot of pictures from when I was larger, but Amy did and was was kind enough to share them with me.

Wild, right??


I'm not going to be all dramatic and say I was hiding behind my smile, because you know what?
I wasn't. Even at my biggest, I've always been a happy and confident person.

While I will never be that girl again, part of me does secretly wish that I could go back to that mindset where I didn't over analyze everything. Hindsight is always 20:20 though, right?

I spend so much time being hard on myself for over indulging, skipping workouts etc... but today, I'm just going to be proud of how far I've come.

3 comments:

Sarah said...

You are so inpiring Amy. I agree about not being too hard on yourself. It's something I struggle with too. You have come a long way!!

Teresa said...

You've done a wonderful job and are inspirational. Do take care, good luck with the surgery.

Kataroo said...

I totally understand this feeling. I feel like my i've been struggling with weight and thoughts about weight and food all my life. I have memories of it as young as kindergarden. Spent most of my youth bulimic and totally entrenched in a black hole. When I "recovered" and gained a lot and I mean a lot of weight, I was FREE. I look back at my size 22 pics and I see a happy funny girl. I was free of thoughts of food and weight. I wasn't obsessing. But eventually the weight took it's toll my body hurt and I was ready to lose it. I lost weight over a 2 year period and didn't "diet" per say. But losing all that weight brought back the thoughts....counting cals, thinking about food to much, feeling guilty, etc. Really "normal" thoughts likely for most women that are losing weight or trying to. But they were triggering thoughts and after what seemed like a life time of dealing with these thoughts I knew it was time to try and let them go. I feel like the last 2 years, the last year especially of my "healthy journey" has really been about finding my own balance. My own way of maintaining my weight, enjoying the foods and wine that I love. Enjoying the exercise that I love. It's been about enjoying living life in this healthy fit body. I still have my moments of panic, of OH MY you have totally gone overboard, your getting fluffy Katie, you better cut back, you better. But they are less and less. All this to say that I think you will find your own way to quiet the "noise". You have found your passion for sweat and exercise, and you have learned so much about nutrition and what works for you. Very proud of you :)

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