Right from the beginning, I have always loved to eat.
I was always the chubby girl growing up, but always maintained a quasi active lifestyle by playing sports.
My mother passed away when I was 11, and I remember my Dad trying to tell me several times that he was concerned about my climbing weight. I merely brushed it off, and continued to be a pretty happy teenager. I remember Saturday nights used to be my favorite, because we'd get to rent a movie and get a bad of chips. I had no problem polishing off an entire large bag of Ruffles chips.
Once I got my drivers liscence, I would often go to my favorite fast food places like Taco Bell, McDonalds and Burger King to indulge in high fat foods "in secret". My best friend and I would also out to dinner frequently and often gorge ourselves until we were so full we couldn't move! The picture shown here is my senior prom. I had to buy my prom dress online from the US, because I was too ashamed to go to a plus sized store. This dress was a size 22, and I was 19 years old in this picture.
I must admit though, I was always a happy fat girl. I was part of the popular crowd; confident and out going.
Fast forward to my first two years of university. I was already big when I started, but living in residence eating junk and drinking 5 out of 7 days made my weight soar.
In second year, my friend Krissy and I joined a gym. I remember going for the fitness test… and the scale reading 267lbs. The lady actually said to me “There must be something wrong with the scale” because she didn’t think it was possible for me to weigh that much.
Throughout the last part of my 2nd year and throughout the summer, I lost 20 lbs just by eating cleaner and getting in a little bit of exercise.
In 3rd. I decide to try internet dating. I chat up a wonderfully handsome boy (does this story sound familiar Krissy?) and we have so much in common. I feel like I’ve met my soul mate. We decide to meet for a drink. I have nervous butterflies in anticipation of meeting my prince charming. I will never forget the look on his face when I opened the door to meet him. It was pure disgust.
Sadly enough THAT was my moment.
I’ve always known that I have a wonderful personality. I’m witty, funny and have a wide variety of interests. I wanted the body to go along with that personality.
Krissy and I joined Weight Watchers shortly after that horrific experience. I’ve never come out and thanked Krissy for being such an awesome WWer buddy. She drove me to all of our meetings, and took me out for groceries after. THANK YOU KRISSY! In addition to Krissy, I had a bunch of supportive roommates, and even more support from my family.
Its a little embarrassing to admit that my “That's it” moment was triggered by a boy… but hey, it got me where I am today.
Today I am happy, healthy and am keeping my weight in check by enjoying the foods I love in moderation.
I have run 10 half marathons.
I know what its like to feel beautiful.
I feel strong, and lean.
I am confident.
I am proud of my accomplishments.
And I know I will never look in the mirror and see this face again.